Someone asked me that last night... which one of my books was my FAVORITE!?!?!?!?!?
At first, I just sat there staring at her like "how the hell am i supposed to answer that question?!??!!"
But then I realized...
I absolutely do have a favorite.
I told her that I was most proud of The Perfect Game. That i'd worked so hard to learn, grow and become a better writer and storyteller that at this point... that's the one that i'm the most proud of. :)
But the truth is...
The book that is my favorite is the one that started this whole journey. The original story that I couldn't get out of my head. The dream that haunted me for over ten years. The boy I've never met who will always own a piece of my heart.
I'm talking about In Dreams.
That book is my favorite because it's my guts, my heart and my soul. It's a part of me in ways I only wish you all understood. It's my favorite because it represents so many aspects of life that I believe to be true; like soulmates, reincarnation, past-lives, talking to the dead...
And I was pulled to write it. It called to me so strongly I could no longer ignore it. It HAD to be written. Even if it wasn't written very well, it was a story that demanded to be told. In Dreams is more personal to me than anything else i've written- probably because I didn't just let you into a couple years of my life, I brought you into my heart, into my dreams, into my soul and my beliefs. I brought you into MY ENTIRE LIFE. In Dreams isn't a simple story about love. It's a story about love that spans lifetimes. A love you can't get over or move past. It's about a love that pulls you in so tightly- even if you don't get why- you know you don't want to let it go.
So my answer to her?
"My favorite book is the one that's written the worst and that people hate the most. How ironic is that?"
PS- so many of you have found In Dreams lately and have fallen in love with it. I want you to know how much that means to me. I know it's rough and not written as well as I would like, but we all have to start somewhere right? :) THANK YOU for giving it a chance. I am thankful.