so my book is done! well, the first version is done. i know i still need to edit, but here's the thing about writing a book- the characters, the story, everything about is SO.PERSONAL. to you as the writer. it's hard to see outside the box anymore. that's why i feel like i need professional help, you know? i need an editor.
i think i have a really good story, with some really amazing and loveable characters. that's the biggest thing... i am IN LOVE with my characters. but i also am not naive enough to think that my story is in the best possible shape it can be in. it can be better. it can probably always be better. but that's where i stop seeing where i can improve it... because i'm too close to it, you know?
even in knowing i need to shape this story up... i've sent out query letters to some literary agents. i'm hoping that someone will be interested enough in my story to want to request some pages. and then i'm hoping that those pages will interest them enough to want to request the whole thing. so far... i've gotten 5 rejections.
i just have to laugh. because if i was an editor, i'd probably reject my query letter too! i mean, for those of you who don't know... a query letter is basically summing up your entire book in 1 paragraph. how are you supposed to sum up an entire book in ONE PARAGRAPH?!?!?! i don't know, but people do it all the time.
my biggest problem i think? while i love love love my characters... and i truly do love the story.. i'm not sure how unique or powerful it is. for me.... i write really honestly and really naturally. i feel like the story i've written is something that could happen in real life. the characters are real.. everything is just .... real-esque? and maybe that's boring? maybe it's not fantastical enough? but it's how i am. i write real. in my opinion, that makes a good story.
but what the fuck do i know?
anyway.... if worse comes to worse and i find that i cannot find an agent, or someone who wants to publish the book, i will end up publishing and selling it myself. self publishing! but in all honesty, i'd prefer to get published.
so that's where i'm at... the corner of rejection blvd and still hopeful circle.