i don't talk about it that often, do i? but y'all should know that i'm still freaking jobless. i really am looking for work all over the place, but as of right now- nothing has panned out. guess what else though? i still feel super okay about it all. i don't know what my problem is. i don't know why i'm not freaking out, or why i haven't freaked out yet.... maybe i have fully accepted that i can only do so much about this situation. i search for jobs- i've talked to recruiters- i've talked to casting directors, agents, publicists- i've had great conversations with people- and i feel like short of applying at taco bell, i'm doing everything i can and should be doing. so i feel good about everything.
the only thing that sucks is having no money in the summer to do anything with.
and the other thing that sucks is my desire to travel and do stuff. i mean, summer to me equals subconsciously, travel... trips.. fun.. and vacations!!! you know?
and so it is so hard to not have any money to go anywhere or do anything. and it's sad.. like it makes me sad on the inside. i think i hate sitting still. at least for long periods of time. it makes me feel like i accomplish nothing, and go nowhere... and i hate all of that.
not to mention the fact that blake is finally at the age where he could appreciate going new places and seeing new things and i'm all sorts of dying to take him places.
so maybe someone wants to sponsor me to travel?!?!?! we can call it um... a history tour for the youth! but the only youth would be my son. we could make that work right?! i think so!
ah man, i need a job.