but hey.. what else is new? ha
i have to throw a bridal shower for my good friend who is getting married to one of boyfriend's best friends. with me so far?
that part is fine. the throwing of the bridal shower. but i immediately started freaking out because where the fuck was i supposed to have this shower at??? you see, the ugly house is... well.. it's ugly.
and i'm embarassed to have people over at my house when i'm not proud of how it looks. there's a reason we haven't had a housewarming party yet. yes, we've lived there 2 years already. shut it. i'm just not ready to entertain in it. the carpets are ruined. there is dog hair everywhere.. and on everything. the kitchen constantly looks awful because of the way the countertops are tiled. i could clean them with a freaking toothbrush and bleach and they'd still look dirty. it's just old. and it looks it. the fact that people are coming over in the daylight when they can see out of my windows and into my backyard almost makes me want to throw up.
but i don't have a choice. i have to throw this party for a bunch of people i don't know.. in my home. and i'm hating everything about that. have i mentioned the fact that some of the chicks coming are people that boyfriend went to high school with? and dated? and these fucking girls are going to be in my home?? my HOME. my PERSONAL space.
i pretty much hate everything about this entire situation.
we looked into renting a space somewhere, but i'm not paying $500 bucks to rent a location for a freaking bridal shower. that is ridiculous to me. plus i'm not in any sort of situation to spend that kind of money on something like that.
so at my house it is.
am i being a complete ridiculous bitch on this one?! or just ridiculous?