have you ever realized that?
it's fucking annoying.
because it seems like you can plan and follow what feels right for only so long. until doubts creep in. or ONE doubt. and it seems like that 1 negative thing can throw you off your path completely.
it's what is happening to me right now.
and it's pissing me off. cause before i had this doubt, i was really motivated. and happy. and singing songs with little birds on my shoulder. nah, you're right.. i would have kilt the birds. but still... this thing.. it felt right.
but now. i'm not so sure anymore. now, i can't shake the doubt. and i don't know if it's because it's scary? or unknown? or a complete and total RISK that involves a ridiculous amount of potential failure... or because i've been reading a lot of information and i'm not liking what i'm hearing. or what i hear scares me. and then leads me to think that maybe it's not the right choice for me. that maybe what i want out of this potential thing, isn't the reality of what i would be getting. maybe i never saw things clearly. maybe i do always cloud things in rainbows and puppies.
it's frustrating to me to see how easy it is to make me start questioning everything.
to make me stop believing.
to make me doubt myself and my potential.
but i guess the reality is... great rewards require great risks. but at what cost? and when is that cost too great?