Monday, February 08, 2010

hiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!

i just wanted to say hi! and that i'm on my way back! i hope to be in the position VERY SOON when i can talk to y'all about what has been going on with me.

i am tired of giving random people control over my life. people who don't matter to me at all in the grand scheme of things, seem to have this power over my well being. we're all in that position in one way or another. i need it to end. i have to take control.

because i am fucking awesome.

and i deserve a shitload of good stuff, and it is clear that no one else is going to make that happen.

i have to make my own good fortune. i can't leave MY life up to other people. i can't put my path in someone else's hands to make the decisions for me. they don't have to live with those decisions day in and day out. i do.

i have to pave my own trail.

and i have to do it in a way that is positive and good and loving. you get back what you put out, you know.

and things have been negative and unhealthy and BAD for far too long. it's very unster like and i'm fucking over it.

time for change bitches.

9 comments:

Benjamin said...

See, you blog like blogs originally started off to be. Random thoughts and stuff.

Katie said...

spoken like a champ!

Corinna Makris said...

you are a rockstar. i have no idea what is going on in your life but i get that you are facing challenges.

and now you announce to the universe that you are gonna kick some existential ass.

you are so badass.

i <3 you. big time. can i be your sidekick? can we wear costumes?

J from Ireland said...

You ARE fucking awesome!! I feel so american saying that word, awesome, if I said it in real life people would laugh with my accent!!

russie face said...

STER ... hi

Jill said...

From a famous movie: I have come here to chew bubblegum and kick ass... and I'm all out of bubblegum.

SUEB0B said...

You are fucking awesome.

Heather@WHMB said...

You can do it, because yes, you are fucking awesome. :)

Annie said...

you are awesome lady!
hurry up and come back!