i am tired of giving random people control over my life. people who don't matter to me at all in the grand scheme of things, seem to have this power over my well being. we're all in that position in one way or another. i need it to end. i have to take control.
because i am fucking awesome.
and i deserve a shitload of good stuff, and it is clear that no one else is going to make that happen.
i have to make my own good fortune. i can't leave MY life up to other people. i can't put my path in someone else's hands to make the decisions for me. they don't have to live with those decisions day in and day out. i do.
i have to pave my own trail.
and i have to do it in a way that is positive and good and loving. you get back what you put out, you know.
and things have been negative and unhealthy and BAD for far too long. it's very unster like and i'm fucking over it.
time for change bitches.