i kind of feel like an ass for this post because really? i'm bitching about the fact that i'm not going on vacation. boo fucking hoo. there is so much other stuff going on in the world that sometimes i forget to look outside of my own. i can get so wrapped up in my own sense of self and while i get that of course, my own self is important, there are other things that are important as well.
i can only imagine a person who just lost their job after working it for 20 years reading my blog about me whining about wahhhh, i don't get to see my friends this year. and their probably sitting there like really? this is what you have to complain about? and i feel like the things i bitch about are so fucking trivial. and in reality- they are.
sometimes i just need to keep it in perspective. i am emotional. i write emotionally, i live emotionally... i'm an emotional being. i just forget about anyone else when i write sometimes. i'm so caught up in my own feelings and my own perspective and my own about to go crazy-ness. i'm sure that's normal. i dunno.
i'd gladly not take a vacation for years if it meant that this economy could get back on its feet and take care of its people. yes, i totally think the economy has people. i know that so many people are hurting. so many people are in situations they can't see themselves out of. and i wish it was better for them. i truly do. and i'm sorry for bitching about something as stupid as not being able to see my friends. i should have been thankful for everything i do have instead.