Thursday, July 02, 2009

i bitch a lot

i kind of feel like an ass for this post because really? i'm bitching about the fact that i'm not going on vacation. boo fucking hoo. there is so much other stuff going on in the world that sometimes i forget to look outside of my own. i can get so wrapped up in my own sense of self and while i get that of course, my own self is important, there are other things that are important as well.

i can only imagine a person who just lost their job after working it for 20 years reading my blog about me whining about wahhhh, i don't get to see my friends this year. and their probably sitting there like really? this is what you have to complain about? and i feel like the things i bitch about are so fucking trivial. and in reality- they are.

sometimes i just need to keep it in perspective. i am emotional. i write emotionally, i live emotionally... i'm an emotional being. i just forget about anyone else when i write sometimes. i'm so caught up in my own feelings and my own perspective and my own about to go crazy-ness. i'm sure that's normal. i dunno.

i'd gladly not take a vacation for years if it meant that this economy could get back on its feet and take care of its people. yes, i totally think the economy has people. i know that so many people are hurting. so many people are in situations they can't see themselves out of. and i wish it was better for them. i truly do. and i'm sorry for bitching about something as stupid as not being able to see my friends. i should have been thankful for everything i do have instead.

6 comments:

Becca said...

Aw, don't feel bad! All of us have to vent sometimes. I totally get where you are coming though.

Something that put it into prospective for me this morning? My mom's good friend's son is one of the 4,000 Marines attacking the Taliban right now and she was asking us to please pray for them... I immediately started bawling because omg, here I am worried about the bathing suit that I'm going to wear this weekend and my childhood friend is fighting in a war. THAT really snapped be back into reality quickly.

Oh! I was looking through some pictures last night and came across one that I totally saw you in, lmao!! I guess caffeinatrix is right, we DO look alike.

Sorry for the novel that I just wrote! :)

Becky said...

you know, i'm def one to say that problems are relative. it might be trivial BUT it's still YOUR problem...it still BUGS you weather it's legit to someone else or not, you know? i feel like a jackass bitching about not seeing yall this summer when i JUST got back from vacation...but yet it still stands that i hate that i won't see yall this summer. i think there's room to bitch about trivial things as well as big things.

Nora-A Hot Mama said...

If it's any consolation, I'm not going on a vacay either. Not because of the economy, but because I've discovered it's not much of a vacation with a 1 year old and 5 year old, it's WORK!. Sometimes it's just easier at home.

Alison said...

I agree with Becky. :)

That said, I complain a lot too about stupid shit. Every now and then I check myself, but usually I'm in my own little world, griping about anything and everything.

Bitch, bitch, complain, complain.

Jenny said...

You know, this is YOUR place to say whatever you want, so if you feel like bitchin, then just go right ahead! And if we tried really hard to put everything into perspective then we would never complain and if we never complained then we would be Stepford people. I'd rather be complainy than plastic!

Smug said...

I agree with everyone else. This is a safe place where no one will judge you. You are entitled to your feelings!