Wednesday, September 10, 2008

the weirdest thing about my job

is that i'm in the entertainment industry, but i'm nowhere near the entertainment industry physically.

now some people might think that's a good thing. hell, some people probably think that's the best part about working up here. it's not like the entertainment industry is terribly kind. it can be a very cruel and disheartening business. but seriously, what industry can't be those things? i don't think there's any job out there that shits roses 100% of the time.

anyway, i get why some people would love the fact that we're nowhere near LA or hollywood. that we're working in entertainment, yet aren't surrounded by it and can totally escape it. for some, that probably sounds damn near perfect. i totally get that. i'm just not one of those people. it's so weird for me to be in this business, but be nowhere near it. it's so weird to be working in tv, yet nowhere near a tv studio (not that i would need to be anyway, but still). it's just weird to be involved in such an awesome and exciting part of this industry, but not really get to enjoy it. i mean... i guess i just feel like i'm missing out in a way. it would be like being a florist in an area that doesn't grow flowers. so all your flowers have to be flown in from somewhere else and that's the only time you get exposure to them and get to work with them. otherwise, they're nowhere near you and nowhere to be found. does that even make sense? hell, is that even a good analogy? lol

i love this business. i love this industry. as fucked up as it can be, it's also amazing. i choose to see the good in it. the entertaining part of it. the part that helps people lose themselves in a tv show every week- or a movie... or a song on the radio. the part where entertainment truly is a part of our society... our culture.. and our way of life. i love what i do. i truly do. it just sometimes makes me sad that i'm so far away from everything else i love about this industry.. it's one thing to be a part of this biz and be surrounded by it. being able to choose how much of it you want in your life on a particular day by deciding where to eat dinner, where to shop, where to go out, where to live, etc. but it's quite another to be in this business and not have those options. because no matter what you choose, you won't run into it because it's not there. most days- i really want those options. i want it to be my choice. but it's not. and sometimes that's a hard pill to swallow.

(in all honesty however, those things aren't what truly matter. would my life be better if i could go out to the celebrity filled clubs and attend industry parties, etc? no. and i'm sure you'd see me blogging about how i get to do all these things, but they don't matter. they aren't important. they don't make my life fuller, more complete. they don't make me a more awesome mom, wife, or person.)

i guess it's when certain things aren't an option, you want them even more. you miss them more because you know they aren't there. you know you can't have them. you know you don't have a say in the matter. you don't have a choice. i just wanted to point out that while i truly do miss these things and i truly do think it's weird to not have them around me, i also realize that they aren't what makes my world go round.

someone shut me up already..

18 comments:

Anonymous said...

I get what you are trying to say. Any plans on moving?

Alison said...

Come hoooooooooome!!! :)

Insane Mama said...

I live near Hollywood and IT SUCKS

Insane Mama said...

Hello, I am mariah and I am certifiably insane

Insane Mama said...

My own little world loves me though

Insane Mama said...

I follow you on twitter

Insane Mama said...

Do you love me now?

Heinous said...

I understand what you're saying, but I've been doing freelance stuff for so long (along with my normal job) that either way seems normal to me.

P.S. I thought jennster made the world go 'round.

Backpacking Dad said...

So...

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I've never been to a fabulous party with big stars.

No. I take it back. I went to a dinner where Ralph Nader was the guest of honour. He's a big star, right?

No. I suppose not.

I too work in an industry where the majority of the content is produced elsewhere...and elsewhen. And I never get to socialize with the people who are producing that content. I just get to have imaginary conversations with them and pretend like I know what I'm talking about.

That industry? Philosophy. Professional, academic, philosophy. Bastards all live on the east coast.

Amanda said...

Jobs are weird period, the best you can hope for is that when you get home and look at those faces again you don't regret where you spent the last 8 (or 12) hours).

Ok, that sounds bleak. Damnit, but I wanted to comment. Suckage.

Kathy said...

I see your point, but I still can't imagine what it would be like to live in Hollywood...might be fun for a while, but not long term....who knows though? Why not try it!

Mom101 said...

I used to have it the other way - working in and around the industry while having not so much to do with it. Which made me a loser.

You, on the other hand, are a rock star in your little world. That's kind of cool.

Issas Crazy World said...

Hmmm so when are you moving? :)

No, I get it. LA has an excitement about it and I miss it. I wan't in that industry, but I worked in a building where people did. I saw stars that people will never see out of a movie, hell I knew some of them.

Hey remember that 2,996 project we were a part of two years ago? I'm about to post what I did then and I'm linking to you. Just reminded me of how different the blog world used to be. I love it and man did I miss it, but it has changed.

Anissa Mayhew said...

But where else could you have water fountain fights at lunch, for real?

Daddy Dan said...

Begging for comments???? WTF? You've reached rock bottom, Jennster!

But I still love you. =)

Ali said...

industry parties would make MY life better...so send 'em my way please. heh.

Virginia Belle said...

see, i am kind of glad i don't get to meet celebrities. that way, i get to imagine them however i want, instead of having reality come crashing down and ruining my daydreams, you know?

for example:

i firmly believe that R.E.M. would jam out at my house on weekends if they knew me.

and gwen stefani would love to have me for a best friend.

dolce & gabanna would totally want me as the muse for their next collection.

i would be the ideal dinner companion for david sedaris.

and julian mcmahon wants to have lots of hot, dirty monkey sex with me.

see???

it's so much better this way.

Kristabella said...

I don't really understand what you're saying but that is because I have no desire to live in LA.

But I can understand from the sports aspect. My friend used to work for the Pac-10 and it was hard for her because she had no team and no players she saw every day.