is that i'm in the entertainment industry, but i'm nowhere near the entertainment industry physically.
now some people might think that's a good thing. hell, some people probably think that's the best part about working up here. it's not like the entertainment industry is terribly kind. it can be a very cruel and disheartening business. but seriously, what industry can't be those things? i don't think there's any job out there that shits roses 100% of the time.
anyway, i get why some people would love the fact that we're nowhere near LA or hollywood. that we're working in entertainment, yet aren't surrounded by it and can totally escape it. for some, that probably sounds damn near perfect. i totally get that. i'm just not one of those people. it's so weird for me to be in this business, but be nowhere near it. it's so weird to be working in tv, yet nowhere near a tv studio (not that i would need to be anyway, but still). it's just weird to be involved in such an awesome and exciting part of this industry, but not really get to enjoy it. i mean... i guess i just feel like i'm missing out in a way. it would be like being a florist in an area that doesn't grow flowers. so all your flowers have to be flown in from somewhere else and that's the only time you get exposure to them and get to work with them. otherwise, they're nowhere near you and nowhere to be found. does that even make sense? hell, is that even a good analogy? lol
i love this business. i love this industry. as fucked up as it can be, it's also amazing. i choose to see the good in it. the entertaining part of it. the part that helps people lose themselves in a tv show every week- or a movie... or a song on the radio. the part where entertainment truly is a part of our society... our culture.. and our way of life. i love what i do. i truly do. it just sometimes makes me sad that i'm so far away from everything else i love about this industry.. it's one thing to be a part of this biz and be surrounded by it. being able to choose how much of it you want in your life on a particular day by deciding where to eat dinner, where to shop, where to go out, where to live, etc. but it's quite another to be in this business and not have those options. because no matter what you choose, you won't run into it because it's not there. most days- i really want those options. i want it to be my choice. but it's not. and sometimes that's a hard pill to swallow.
(in all honesty however, those things aren't what truly matter. would my life be better if i could go out to the celebrity filled clubs and attend industry parties, etc? no. and i'm sure you'd see me blogging about how i get to do all these things, but they don't matter. they aren't important. they don't make my life fuller, more complete. they don't make me a more awesome mom, wife, or person.)
i guess it's when certain things aren't an option, you want them even more. you miss them more because you know they aren't there. you know you can't have them. you know you don't have a say in the matter. you don't have a choice. i just wanted to point out that while i truly do miss these things and i truly do think it's weird to not have them around me, i also realize that they aren't what makes my world go round.
someone shut me up already..