the boys are leaving today to go to the ranch. they're coming back tomorrow afternoon, but still... that means i get one whole night of bliss!!!
i love the boys, but i also love them when they're gone. i don't have to share the tv. i don't have to watch shit i don't want to watch. i can stay up late. i can do whatever i want and i don't have to run it by anyone, or have anyone affected by it. i love being alone. tonight i'm going to watch stupid movies that no one would want to watch with me anyway. and i'm going to LIKE them. and i'm going to get to watch them UNINTERUPPTED!!!!! there's nothing like attempting to watch a movie and having to fucking pause the thing every 10 minutes because someone in the fucking house needs something from you. argh.
now while i love all of this. i'm also a total freak. i get completely spooked out by every.single.sound when i'm in the house alone. normally i tell myself shit like "oh that's just blake" even when it so obviously is not him. but still, he's IN the house so my mind totally buys it. so when he's not there and i can't pawn it off on being him.... i freak out. so know what i do? i fucking stay awake until it's almost light out. seriously. i am that person. once the sun starts to rise, time for sleepy!
well! we don't have a dog living with us yet so it's not like it can protect me! i promise.. once we have dogs, i'll sleep when it's dark cause they'll either eat the intruders, or lick them to death!