i'm sorry everyone, but omfg. i have had it up to here (you know, the top of my head).
in the wake of blogher, i swear if i read more one more post about being popular, the popular bloggers were nice to me, the popular bloggers were mean to me, the popular bloggers hate me, the popular bloggers like me, how come she's a popular blogger and i'm not, blogging is like high school, how do you blog when you're so popular, wah wah i want to be popular, why aren't we all popular, someone please tell me how popular they think i am, etc.
shut the fuck up already.
look, if having the popular bloggers be nice to you makes you feel good, great. that's your own issue. if that's what you need to value and justify your existance in this world- have it at. i think that's fucking lame, but whatever.. it's not my life and i don't have to live it.
i'm just tired of reading SO MANY POSTS about wanting to be popular. about how the popular people were nice to them and that made them feel good, as if we're not all just fucking normal people to begin with. why wouldn't someone be nice to you? why wouldn't they say hi and talk to you? that's what people do to eachother... regardless of popularity. you know, they socialize with one another. and for the most part, they're nice to eachother.
i'm not naive enough to think that every single person who comes to read this blog will be so taken with it, they can't stop reading it. i know that this blog isn't for everyone. i'm not for everyone. the difference though? i'm perfectly okay with that. i don't need to appeal to the masses. i don't care if i don't. if someone reads this blog and they get my sense of humor and they stick around, that's awesome. but if someone reads it and they don't think i'm funny at all or they can't relate to me at all, that's fine too. i can't relate to every blog out there so i can't expect everyone to relate to mine.
the other thing- why do we all act as if we should be polly-fucking-anna on the internet all the time? do you ever stop to think how unrealistic that truly is? i mean, i certainly don't like every single person i meet offline, so why would i like every single blog i read online? in the same token, why would i like every single person i meet from online, or the blogworld, in real life? it's nothing personal, just sometimes you don't gel with certain people. doesn't make either one of you the bad guy- it's just life. no one likes 100% of the people they meet 100% of the time. at least no one human. and there's nothing wrong with that. i wish we'd all stop acting like there is. now i'm not saying we should tear eachother down and be outright mean to one another. i feel that if you don't like someone, you should simply stop reading them. but we all know that there are people out there who get off on being mean to others.. and trying to bring them down. those people exist in the real world, so why wouldn't they exist online? i guess it's just that sometimes i feel like people think that certain things shouldn't apply when it comes to blogland. certain behaviors, nastiness and meanness shouldn't have a place online. but that's unrealistic as well. because those things have a place in the real world (which is sad, but true), so of course they'd find their way here.
i don't write this blog to be popular. and if you do, i suggest you click the delete button on your blog and walk away from the computer. cause you've got it all wrong. you should probably get out more. i just want everyone to be themselves.
i want you to write because you have something to say, something to get out, or something to share. i want it to be personal and come from your heart and soul. i don't want to read what you think other people want to hear. i don't want to read what you think will give you links on popular bloggers blogs and expose you to more people. i don't want to read what you don't believe, but you think sounds good. i just want to read what's real. you know?
last thing. if you think i'm talking about you, i can assure you i'm not. read that sentence and then read it again because i am not singling any specific person out here, i promise you. but if you do think i'm talking about you, you should ask yourself why.