i've been reading quite a few posts where people are talking about being too scared to go to blogher. they aren't outgoing enough. they aren't social enough. they aren't <insert anything here> enough. and then i've also read some posts from people who DID attend this year and said they wouldn't attend again. their reasons were because they felt out of place. or because they found themselves spending more time in their hotel rooms, than out of them. and that makes me sad. really, really sad. i think that slynnro said it best when she wrote, "And I can certainly see how one, even one lacking self esteem issues, could walk away feeling left out."
because it's true. and i'm telling you first hand. i know you don't believe me because i'm crazy, silly, will talk to anyone and pretty much do anything, so i'll give you an example. at the infamous cheeseburgHER party, there was literally a point in time where i was standing in a corner by myself. one person spoke to me. one. and it wasn't to initiate conversation. it was just to say hello and that was it. and i felt like an ass. i felt like i didn't belong there. and of course i fucking belonged there. but it's easy to sometimes forget things. things that became apparent to me when i was talking to izzy on the phone yesterday.
at blogher- there are 1000 women. most of whom you don't know. most of whom you may not even read. so when you're at a party that includes hundreds of those women, you're not looking around at all the faces you don't know thinking about how you'd like to go talk to them and meet them. you're looking around at all those faces you don't know, praying you'll see one face you do. and the other people around you? they're not noticing that you're by yourself. they're doing the same thing you are.... trying to find one person they recognize. and in the time between recognizing no one and recognizing someone, it's totally terrifying. because you will think things like "wow, i'm going to spend this whole night by myself."
anyway, i truly hope that those who have written off blogher forever, will give it another shot. probably the best advice i can give someone going for the first time, or someone who has social issues, would be to room with someone. if you have a roomie, you have an instant buddy. you have someone that you can pal around with and talk with everyday. and hopefully, you won't feel so alone. i know that it can be tough (even if you're a rockstar).
but you know, i wouldn't miss out on the people i met for the world. because knowing them has made my life better. it's made it more fun, entertaining, and awesome. stories to come. some pictures now.
we live 20 minutes from eachother and never see eachother. we have vowed to stop sucking.
i'm just in love with her today, as i was on friday.
i never knew what i was missing with this awesome chick.. i made her blush!
and i was wrong. y loves me. see?