Friday, June 27, 2008

do you keep a journal?

i mean, other than your blog? did you use to journal and then stopped and started blogging? i mean, what led you to blogging anyway?

i used to write and write and write. i have many journals written in from cover to cover. and i'm not talking about from when i was 16. it started soon after blake was born and then pretty much stopped once i moved in with boyfriend. i stopped having time to write. i stopped having things to bitch about. i mean, the majority of my journals were filled with my desire to find the man of my dreams.... how i refused to settle.... how i would know right off the bat that someone wasn't for me (or that he was). i chronicled other people's opinions of me, and then write about how wrong they were. how they didn't understand. how some people were so opinionated, yet knew so little.

i used to write all the time. i would drive to malibu literally every other weekend and write. i would sit in the back of my jeep and just stare at the ocean.. listen to the waves.. and write in my journal. when i look back at them now, they are virtually the same thing over and over again. "where is he?" "what's taking him so long?" all about love. when you don't have love, what else is there to write about really? :)

today i have a journal that gets written in maybe once a year. and then i have this blog. but the coolest thing i have? it's a journal for blake. i've been writing in it for years. i don't write often, but i think it will be awesome to give it to him one day when he's an adult and he can read back at all the things his crazy mom wrote and thought over the years. and that doesn't even include the things i've written in this blog about him.

what about you?

12 comments:

norcalgirl28 said...

I used to keep a pretty regular journal years ago. Now, as you, the journal that I write in the most is the one I hope to pass on to Drew. It details everything I went through in the 1989 earthquake, etc. Things that I lived through and things that were happening that I think he might find interesting later.

Alison said...

I only kept journals when I was in junior high and one when I was in college. Even I am embarrassed to read them, they are so bad. They won't be passed down to anybody!!

I do have a completely filled out baby book for each of my kids and I recored everything in there for them. Oh, and they each have a scrapbook too.

Smug said...

I have never been a good speller or had nice handwriting, so keeping a handwritten journal was never something I was inclined to do. I started blogging when I was planning the wedding, and needed a place to vent about all the up's and down's.

I don't have children yet, but I really love the idea of keeping a record of their lives and what their mom was doing and thinking about while they were growing up. Maybe I will start an electronic journal for my future children - since I still can't spell and hate my handwriting :)

Don Mills Diva said...

I haven't really kept a regular one for years - that's what my blog is for...

Alison said...

Berries grow in your pants?! Are you pregnant? Get it? Growing berries in your pants....?

carrie said...

I have journaled off and on my whole life . . . and I keep them for my kids (the PG ones, anyway).

It's funny, because I really try NOT to journal when I blog, I just write stories about our family that swirl around in my head anyway. I used to jot little notes about funny things they'd say and tuck them away, now I just post about them!

Missy said...

I tried to start a diary a couple of times when I was younger but I sucked at it. Blogging is much more my style. My wall calendars are always pretty detailed though, so there are lots of memories there.

Jill said...

For some reason I can't seem to make it a priority. I have started and stopped 4 blogs now. I am writing a book at some point but again its the when that is at issue.

Or the fact I have a job that requires my use of the computer about 7 hours a day so the wanting to even look at it otherwise kind of turns my stomach! I would much rather read and comment on other anyway!

Grim Reality Girl said...

I used to journal in high school, but then got depressed reading them so I destroyed them. I wrote long letters instead. Then I got married and journaled about my mother inlaw (Satan). My rantings were 6 months to a year apart. It didn't help, she was still the devil. Then I found blogging and I believe it has brought me closer to sanity. I wish I had been blogging since my kids were born. I love that you journal for Blake.

After my mother passed away I started a letter to each of my kids. I add to them periodically. I say the things I say to them, but I know they will need to hear it again when I'm gone. I needed to hear it again. Written words can bring such peace.

Sorry.... you got me thinking and I started blogging on your blog! I will stop now.

CAT said...

no....not in a long time anyways.....I think having a journal for Blake is an awesome idea though.

Andie said...

I have an online journal and my blog(s). I type way faster than I write.

Sometimes I go back and read, and I have to say, I'm pretty boring. LOL

Fermi said...

A journal for blake.
I hope to do that for my kids when they arrive.

I used to write in journals all of the time. Then that turned into daily emails to my husband, and then I started a group blog to get some estrogen back in my life.