and it was from my father. i picked it up and carried it inside. my face must have said it all because boyfriend immediately asked, "what's wrong??" i just shrugged my shoulders and said, "this is from my dad."
"i'll get the wine."
in all honesty, i was planning on drinking some wine when i got home from work anyway, but it's far more fun to point fingers and be like, "you totally drove me to drink!!"
i opened the box. there was a small note inside saying "here are some picture, etc thought you might like them."
and boy were there pictures. i think every picture that he owned was in that box. well every picture that included my family at least. there were pictures of me as a kid. my sister's wedding. our family pets. lots of pictures of blake and my neice and nephew. so you know, his grandkids. really old pictures. not so old pictures. all of them, including the negatives.... there in 1 box.
i looked at every single picture. every.single.one. that apparently he doesn't want anymore. or doesn't care about anymore. or doesn't want to have to look at anymore.
and i ask you- how am i supposed to take that? do i think of it like, well gee thanks for sending me the pictures instead of throwing them away (although i wouldn't have known any different)? or am i justified in feeling like here is just another example of how he's written off our family, namely me? i mean, he obviously doesn't want them anymore, right? and that's kind of the bottom line- no matter how he tries to justify it (or say it was a nice gesture), the bottom lines was he didn't want them.
so i don't know how to feel. and i'm wondering how you would feel? how would you take that? if your dad, who didn't come to your wedding, who you've barely spoken too since he left your mom for another woman 4 years ago..... how would you feel and what would you think it meant to get a box full of pictures in the mail?