now i think valentine's day is kind of stupid. i mean, why is society telling me that i have to celebrate on a day that is no different than any other plain old day??? valentine's day holds no special meaning for me and boyfriend. we didn't meet for the first time on v-day... we didn't get married, or engaged, or anything significant on this day- so why does february 14th require all this crap???? WHO MAKES THIS SHIT UP??
so while i do think it's sorta dumb... i freaking participate in it every year. because i'm a sucker, and there is a part in me that could NO WAY completely ignore this day. but in my relationship, i'm the only one. i will tell you, out loud and in public, that boyfriend has NEVER, in the 5 valentine's days (tomorrow) that we've spent together, ever, gotten me a single thing. not a piece of candy. not a single rose. not a card. NOTHING. and every fucking year i buy him something. granted, it's a stupid something- BUT IT IS STILL A SOMETHING nonetheless. i either bake for him, or get him candy, or a stupid stuffed animal- just something to acknowledge the day. it's not spectacular, or fancy, but it's sweet. and he knows that i will do something. he knows that i can't do nothing. yet he is completely fine in doing nothing for me. and i guess that's the part i can't quite figure out. maybe i just say valentine's day is stupid, but deep down i really don't mean it??? maybe there is something to having a day that means nothing, to show that they mean something? i don't know!!! all i know is that i am a little bitter that i get totally jipped outta valentine's day when everyone else around me gets the fucking works. and hell, i don't even want the works- i just want something.