but divorce is truly an ugly thing. it brings out the worst in people. the mean parts. the nasty, bitter, greedy, evil parts. parts that otherwise people hide. or don't show. i'd like to say it brings out sides that don't normally exist- but can you truly show a side of yourself that isn't there otherwise? i don't think so. it's always in there somewhere... you don't just suddenly turn into someone you're not. i think we all have the ability to be many things- "it's the choices we make when we think no one's watching that truly define our character."
the fact that both my sister's and my mother's divorces have gone on for the past 3 years is nothing short of ridiculous. the fact the my father had my mother served with legal papers over the thanksgiving holiday, is nothing short of fucked up. i will never believe that the timing of that wasn't intentional. the fact that my ex brother in law served my sister with the most ridiculous legal papers ever last night, asking for an insane amount of money that she could never ever possibly have (when he has plenty of fucking money) is nothing short of greedy, malicious, and pathetic. how he even sleeps at night is beyond me.
the lengths to which people who once loved eachother go to hurt eachother- truly disgusts me. i can't stand seeing people i care about in so much pain. people who have had to deal with this bullshit on and off for the last 3 years, and we wonder why they're so beat down emotionally. can you imagine having to go through all of this turmoil for the length of 3 years? and knowing that it's only continuing and NOT getting better or going away? where the fuck is the light at the end of the tunnel for them? i feel bad that they have to go through this. i feel bad at how ugly it all is. and i just wish it was easier and simpler and whole lot less nasty. but i think people just truly lose sight of things when money is involved. and people turn into greedy fuckfaces who don't see the reality of situations. nevermind the kids, or what is best for them- let's just make sure we can financially fuck their mother so hard, she'll never see straight again. cause that's what really matters right?
making her pay.
and then turning it all around so that you feel okay with your actions. vindicated. so your kids don't have a house to live in... as long as you feel justified, it's not really your problem right? cause it's all about you. and as long as your poor wittle feewings are intact, no one else matters. not even your kids- no matter how many times you try to say they matter- actions will ALWAYS speak louder than words.
and right now.. your actions tell me that you are spineless, poor excuse for a man. and the fact that my nephew has you as a role model makes me want to vomit. i can only hope he grows up to be nothing like you.