it's all about guts.
not really. it's about YOUR GUT. like your gut feelings. your intuition. instincts. whatever you want to call them. the hardest part i think, is really differentiating between what is a true gut feeling as opposed to what is just paranoia, or fear, or any other emotion? and i really think that you never truly know what it is until the whole thing is over. you know, when you look back at the entire situation and can see the whole picture. it's really hard to follow your gut when you're not 100% sure that's what it is in the first place. am i making sense?
basically, there are a lot of things going on in my life right now (no, not boyfriend related at all people- calm down). and there are things that just don't feel right. things i just don't feel good about. and i can't explain why. and i have NO reasons at all for feeling the way i do. and i hate feeling this way because i function on reason. i like to know WHY i feel the way i do. and in this case, i can't figure it out. i don't have reasons. i can't place anything. all i know is that SOMETHING is off. something isn't right. something just plain isn't good.
and so i wonder.... am i reading into things that truly aren't there? or do things just sometimes not feel right because they just aren't right? do things feel not good because they aren't good? i simply don't know and i wish i had answers.