so. it's on to week 3 of me working out. i do anywhere from 30 to 45 minutes on the elliptical machine, and call it a day. it's better than nothing, right? and it's way more work out than i've done in awhile. i'm really trying hard to stay with this. i don't know what it is with me and my mentalness when it comes to excercise. i guess it's because i simply don't enjoy it. and maybe it's because i never see results quick enough- so i get discouraged and think "why am i even doing this when it's not fun and i hate it?!?!"
i'll tell you that i haven't lost a pound (and yes, i have totally changed my diet as well). and no, my clothes aren't fitting differently either. what i have noticed, even if it's ever so slight, is that my legs feel firmer when i walk. oh yeah, another thing to note is my appetite. good gravy, since working out- i am HUNGRY!! like i have a serious appetite and a slim fast doesn't fill it. i'm talking about this because i think it's important to chronicle what the hell is (or isn't) going on to my body when i excercise. and i'm hoping that one day, out of nowhere, i'll just start dropping pounds. or SOMETHING. something the inspires me to keep up this torture. because i really want to stick with it until the wedding. maybe by then, it won't be so torturous anymore. maybe it will become something i like doing? maybe i shouldn't get carried away.
my motivation isn't even wedding focused. it's honeymoon focused. i figured that if i'm going to be traipsing around in a bikini for 7 days, i'd better look better than i do now. cause this view- it would scare small children.