Monday, February 26, 2007

it doesn't matter how cool i am

blake won't hug me at his school, in front of other kids.

i mean, it's been happening for awhile now- but dammit... everytime he turns and gives me that look that says, "please don't try to hug me mom. not now. not here. not in front of my friends..." my heart breaks just a little. so let me tell all of you moms out there with young kids who can't get enough of your hugs..... ENJOY IT WHILE YOU CAN. because as hard as it is to believe, there will come a day when they won't hug you in public. they will stop holding your hand when they walk. and no matter how many times you try to grab it, they won't let you.

and then you'll be forced to miss the days when they would run full speed to you because they wanted to hug you. they didn't care who was watching. they were so happy to see you they practically leapt into your arms, and squeezed your neck so tight, you could barely breathe. you'll miss it, because those days are now memories. and it's sad. even though it's completely expected and your head totally understands it- your heart hates it.

these are the days when i wish blakey face was little again. with his smooshy face, and deep voice... when he wasn't too proud to hold my hand. hell, he wouldn't walk without holding it. they grow up so fast. everyone says it, but it's true. so hold onto your little ones now. hold their hand as often as they'll let you. hug them in public as many times as you can. because even if it takes them longer than normal to stop doing all these things with you- they will eventually.... stop. and you're never fully prepared for it.

11 comments:

Kim said...

Just wait until they become teenagers. My daughter won't even speak to me after the car door is open. So you have to say all your goodbyes and have a great days, or the I love yous before door opens or you get the dirty look, and the silent treatment. My son actually will say it all about halfway there to make sure he gets a response from her before we drop her off. It's pretty funny

Becky said...

i dread that. i remember when i stopped kissing my mom goodbye at school and i remember her face like it was yesterday. she was so heartbroken and back then i had no idea what i did to her. i dread it when hannah does that to me

Loren said...

You are making me want to cry! Adrian is still at the stage that hugs me and doesn't care if we're in public and kisses me and is so affectionate! Why do they have to grow!? Well, it's good that they grow, but why so fast? I feel for you, but try to steal a kiss when no one's watching....

melissamm said...

Maybe it's different with girls? To this day, Madison (15yo) still gives me a kiss on the cheek and hug before she gets out of the car. Plus, she can do that or deal with hearing me yell out "Hey, get back here and give me a kiss bye!" which I've also done.

But yeah, I do still miss the unprovoked hugs and kisses. Now I just get them when she wants to butter me up before asking to go somewhere.

Karen said...

I don't even have kids and I got teary reading your post!

jen said...

this post almost made ME cry!

alison said...

Oh, I don't look forward to this with my little ones. I guess I won't roll my eyes any more when Nicholas insists on giving me 3000 hugs and kisses before I leave him at preschool. :)

BUT, things will come full circle. Just wait until he has children of his own and truly appreciates what a wonderful mom you were to him and gives you all the hugs you want. And his little babies will too..... :)

Theresa said...

Whenever my kids needed me to drop something they forgot at school or missed the school bus, one of the things they had to do was give me a hug and kiss in front of their friends and say, "Thank you Mom, I love you". It was great. But they rarely missed the bus or forgot something.

Grim Reality Girl said...

I'm in the denied the hugs club too. It sucks. I am hugable dammit!

Jenster said...

All may not be lost. My son went through that stage - and it made me so sad - but he's nearly 15 now and thinks nothing of giving me a squeeze in public. So take heart. Maybe it's just a phase.

jen said...

that's it...I am quitting my job today and going home and not working until they start ignoring me on a daily basis...