the boys went camping the weekend i went to blogher. and on that friday, boyfriend called me to ask if blake was allergic to bee stings or not. i told him that i didn't know. he was asking because i am allergic to them. then he asked if blake was allergic to benedryl and if i'd ever given it to him before. i told him i had and he was not allergic to it. so he said he was going to pick some up just in case he gets stung while they're camping.
i know this sounds simple and silly, but to me- it was another thing to add to the list of why i fucking love him so much. the fact that he is smart enough and prepared enough to think about these things. the fact that he thinks about blake's safety. he thinks like.... a dad. and it couldn't be more wonderful. and it constantly blows me away. i know to some people reading, it might sound retarded. but when you're a single mom and you're dating guys who don't want to date you anymore the moment they find out you have a kid, you learn to appreciate the men who have it in them to take all of this on. before boyfriend i'd met plenty of guys who were out the door when they found out about blake. and then there were the other guys who still wanted to date me, but wanted to pretend that blake didn't exist. none of those options worked for me. not to mention, the guys who were nothing but metrosexual, rich, party boys. and i've learned that THAT doesn't really work for me either. so they got added to my list of guys not to date: no musicians, actors, professional athletes, and guys with too much money who grew up in beverly hills.
boyfriend is a rare breed. he simply is. even when compared to his friends, whom i love dearly. i don't think any of them could have taken me on and been the type of father figure that he is to blake. whoever he was before he met me, it couldn't have been as fabulous as he is now. because he never had to be a dad before. and now he does. and everyday, when i realize how we both stop ourselves from swearing when blake is around (but watch out when he's gone! trucker mouths come out).. and how he explains things to blake so he can understand, and how he teaches him ways to be a man... it takes my breath away. and i just sit there looking at him, and think of how lucky blake and i both are.