Tuesday, August 01, 2006

blogher detox

i feel like i should check myself into a recovery center in malibu or something. i wasn't prepared for this part of blogher. the end part. the "it's all over and everyone is gone" part. i definitely couldn't have predicted feeling this way.

it's a total emotional letdown. like coming off a high that's lasted 3 days. you surround yourself with hundreds of amazing women- and you spend tons of time with them.. day in, and day out for an entire weekend. it might not sound like much, but it is. it is overwhelming. it is emotionally exhausting- but you don't want it to end. you want to spend more time with certain people. talk more. drink more. just hang out together more. because everything that you do, is just so damn enjoyable.

but now it's over. and everyone is gone. and i'm sitting here feeling something i can't quite explain. something i never expected i would feel. and i wonder if this is what it feels like when you're coming off a coke high, or something. this overwhelming feel good time that lasts 3 whole days and then all at once.. it's gone. it's like going from 100 to 0 in no time flat.

boyfriend doesn't understand it (which surprises me in itself). he wants my attention, but he can tell that i'm not quite all there yet mentally. and he's right. i'm not. my mind races with conversations and pictures and everything that happened. i can't get enough of other people's flickr pics. i can't stop reading people's blogs that i met there to hear their feelings on the weekend. it's like i'm consumed by it all. i want to drown myself in everyone's experiences and just share the good times over and over again. i feel like a crackwhore. and i'm wondering if i'm the only one?

30 comments:

mothergoosemouse said...

I think "detox" is very apt. Except I want to be toxic again.

Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah said...

Nope. I feel the same way.

BlogHer was so much fun, now it's back to reality.

Becky said...

i dont think youre the only one. i think most the women there are feeling that way. i get like that. after i get back from a cool vacation or just spending a fun weekend with friends or anything...i get the same way. i can't stop looking at pics and reading emails everyone sent around and remembering certain things. it sucks to come down off that high. i'm sure when we get back from CA i'll be the same way. i love vacations like that---the childless do anything you want ones. and i know when i get back i'll be feeling the same way. its totally natural and i'm sure alot of the other poeple you hung out with are feeling the same way!

Jenn said...

Yup, your a blogher crack whore. I hear that a long nap and some strong coffee helps with that. =oP

Mary Tsao said...

I'm totally shaking and sweating in the corner, big time.

Not a pretty sight. Thank god the nanny's here today. (And yes, I'm one of those bitches who has a nanny!)

Mocha said...

Your first paragraph is PERFECT. That sums up my feelings exactly about this let-down portion of the post-BlogHer.

However...

we are SO. BROKE. UP.

That's right. You and me. We're done. There was not enough time with you (check my pics, though - a really CUTE one of you) and then you didn't even include me in your previous post.

No matter. I just read that you think I'm a sexy bitch.

Ok. We're back together.

norcalgirl28 said...

When I went to summer school in England in the 80's, I came back and felt like I had entered a completely different world. I had experiences that noone understood, I met people that noone back home knew, I did things and understood things that were unexplainable back home. I wanted to run back to the dorms in England so fast it wasn't funny. I am sure you are continuing to absorb everything you did and everyone you met this weekend. Do the words "life altering" somehow explain it? You entered a world that was only on the computer, for the most part, until last weekend. Take time for yourself and tell Point to bring Blake over and slip and slide if he gets frustrated.

Christina said...

I feel the same way, and it sucks. I'm already missing everyone, and I swear I felt the urge for a Yahootini last night.

It didn't feel the same to be back to my mundane life.

Kevin Charnas said...

No doubt everyone else is starting to itch right about now from the crabs and scabbies that you gave them. It took about 2 days after meeting you for all the STD's to "kick" in and then of course, I'm still suffering.

I bet those poor women never knew what happened.

See? Don't you miss me? :)

Lisa said...

I can totally understand. Sort of like the day after Christmas...

coffeygirlb said...

Hey Jenn. They just have to put an expiration date on them cause it's a school and other wise people would be wandering around with them indefinitly...I guess?
You have no idea how jealous I am that you met Amalah. Oh yeah I saw the pictures..everywhere. You are hitting the bigtime lady! Tell me. How cool was she? And did you meet Dooce? It you did I will just die!!!

carmachu said...

Were you ever there mentally to begin with? *grin*

Ok, what the heck is blogher?

a crackwhore named roo said...

No, you are not the only one.

I enjoyed meeting you, Jennster.

Mayberry said...

Yeah, this is TOTALLY how I felt the last time I did coke.

Hee!
Loved your last post too wth all the beautiful babes. How is it that bloggers are all so drop-dead gorgeous?!

MrsFortune said...

Yay Jennster! I saw your flickr photo, the sticker with the birthday wish. YOU ROCK. Sorry about the let down, but just keep saying "chicago, next year, chicago, next year."

jess said...

I feel exactly the same way too.

Oh god i want my leg humped by you.

Mega Mom said...

Too. many. kids. grabbing. at. legs. What?!?!

Detox? I may just START drinking.

I miss you all. I never knew boyfriend had a blog. Veeerrryyy interesting. Don't let MOTR see it, she'll be mad :)

I miss you!!!!

melissa b. said...

ahhh, I wanna go next year!! I'm so glad you had a blast. You deserved it baby!

Suebob said...

dear crackwhore,

nope, you're not the only one.

wendy boucher said...

Here's a big SMOOCH if it makes you feel any better. I am the happiest camper since I got to hang out with you. Can't wait to do it again!

Mommy off the Record said...

I miss you.

*sob*

*hiccup*

*sob*

And who the f-- took those pictures of the statues with the fanny packs on? Was that you Jennster? Can you PLEASE stop cracking me up? It just makes me miss you more.

kim said...

I would totally feel sorry for you right now .... except
YOU GOT TO GO AND I DIDNT!!! biatch

honestly though im sure everyone that was there is feeling a little bit of the let down after all that fun!

I loved the pics and I'm still catching up thru everyone elses blogs
It looked like a blast
Ohhhh and I love your new pic :)

Kevin Charnas said...

Hey, you know I was just kidding around, right? Right, poop-breath?

Nancy said...

Nope, you're not alone -- I've had the DTs bigtime this week. I think I'm going to have to sleep it off.

ekd said...

You are soooo NOT the only one... I'm jonesing for some more poolside Yahootinis and diet mineral water, oh, and some girl time too...

Karl said...

How did I not hang with you? Great recaps of the weekend. So many amazing women and not enough hours.

Izzy said...

No, you're not alone. The big letdown kind of hit me yesterday.

Honestly, it reminds me of why I started to hate taking ecstasy (a zillion years ago). The comedown was such a drag...not unlike what you describe.

I do worry that next year will not live up to this year. How could it?

Yours in ever-loving whoredom,
BBFF Izzy

stefanierj said...

Jennster, your posts about BlogHer are so funny and sweet that I want to a. start reading your blog so you'll know who I am so that b. I will get my leg humped by you next year in Chicar-go.

So this is my first time here, but not my last. You crack. me. up.

Blog Princess said...

Darn I wish I had been there but I'm a new blogger and not a great one at that.
Sounds like it was an awesome time. I wouldn't mind detoxing with all of you..lol
Maybe next time.

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