Friday, July 07, 2006

thank you

to everyone who read the post below. thank you so incredibly much for all of your comments. the way in which you could relate, or couldn't (but still completely understood), opened up about your own experiences, or just offered hugs- truly meant a lot to me. you are an inspiration. every single one of you. i think you are amazing! sincerely. thank you again.

as i said before, i am in a different place now. a place that isn't so angry. a place that isn't so hate filled. all of those emotions seem to have subsided (thank the goddess). other emotions are still very present and there are certain things i think won't ever change entirely. but i suppose that's to be expected when something like this happens for the reasons it happened for. i know i will have more to talk about in regards to this in the near future because my mind and heart continue to hurt when i think about our upcoming wedding. so i guess, thank you in advance.

mothergoosemouse- you asked about the boyfriend i mentioned in the post.. yes, that is boyfriend.. the same guy i'm with now and am going to marry. he was amazing through all of this. hell, he continues to be amazing. so fucking understanding and i could not ask for a man who has the ability to be more emotionally there for me than my future husband. he truly is incredible when it comes to dealing with me and just intuitively knowing me. with that said however, i like to think i'm pretty aware when i'm being unreasonable or a bitch for reasons that don't truly stem from him or his behavior. i like to figure out why i'm feeling a certain way and what the root issue is, etc. but that doesn't mean i stop acting crazy. i usually recognize all of these things, but still act like a spazz- whatever, he puts up with me. ha!

and anonymous- thank you. thank you for letting me know that the previous comment you had made about the ass and cleavage was completely rhetorical and not personal at all towards me. you didn't have to do that, but you did. and i appreciate it.

now.. GO SEE PIRATES!! WOO HOO!

20 comments:

Kevin Charnas said...

AND WHERE THE HELL'S MY 'THANK YOU'!!! HUH? WHERE'S THE 'THANKS KEVIN FOR YOUR HAWWTTT TIGHT ASS AND BULGING PECS!! FOR THOSE WELL-DEFINED CALVES AND STRONG BUILT THIGHS AND CUT ABS!! AND BIONIC PEEP!!" HUH?? WHERE???????

Becky said...

i can't wait to watch pirates! YAY!

and this post was just as touching as the last! so glad youre in a better place now!

Melissa said...

Oh my god. First you make me cry and then you make me laugh. I love you girl.

I am so freaking excited about Pirates. We are going tomorrow I think.

Melissa said...

Also....Kevin you crack me up. I really need to check out your blog.

Stacy said...

Congrats on your upcoming wedding! I just got married on 6/10. My parents marriage ended the same way, but I was less than two years old and had more time to come to terms with it. It was still hard, after always swearing that I would never get married, never open myself up to that kind of thing. It's amazing how healing it is to meet someone who loves you enough to look past your wounds and imperfections and to bear the anger and mistrust that isn't rightfully their's at all. I hope you're wedding is awesome and that you have as many happy memories afterward as I do now! Congrats againm, and don't forget to breathe, and to enjoy every bit of it as much as you can!

mothergoosemouse said...

Jenn, thanks! Yes, your boyfriend sounds like a wonderful guy - thought so all along, but his support for you during the crisis with your dad totally clinches it.

Catherine said...

I just read the last post, and let me add to the others... POWERFUL! It takes courage to share such deep feelings, and to show the world how far you've come. Thank you for being so strong, that we all might learn from it. :)

myboyfriendiscrazy said...

I'm seein it tomorrow! yay!

kat said...

it's just totally unfair to have certain family members who leave us all sorts of crap and complexes to deal with. this is why we learn to laugh. we have no other choice if we want to make it through. they are such poopieheads. poopieheads i say!

Yorksdevil said...

I went to see Pirates yesterday and am just about to write about it.

mollymcmommy said...

i love depp in that role, he is so perfect for it.
is it bad i'm drooling reading kevin's comment?!
i need to get me some!!! woo-hoo!

glad you're in a much better place jenn. carrying around negativity like that is not good for one's soul, better to release, learn about yourself in the mean time and try to move on.

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Elizabeth said...

Um, why does Kevin describe himself as "bionic"? Does he have mechanical moving parts? I must know this.

And you are so sweet, and so sensitive, I'm glad you found "the one" to marry and make your family complete. YAY boyfriend!

P.S. Would it be inappropriate to show up at BlogHer wearing a "Member of Jennster's Hot Pieces of Ass Blogging Crew" t-shirt?

Suburban Turmoil said...

Hey, that WAS nice of anonymous. Wow.

That last entry was painful for me to read. I felt my chest tightening like it had happened to me. I'm glad you're working through it. Don't let him bring you down, girl! :)

The June Cleaver Diaries said...

Ooohhh--- just read the last post. I am soooo with you, as you know from our emails back and forth. Just substitue "Mom" for "Dad," and I could have written the same thing.

Although the sentence about not being able to keep his dick in his pants wouldn't really make sense, in my case. But the rest---- yeah, that's good!

penguininthesun said...

you rock, Jenns!

Saw the movie... was fun stuff.

CyberCelt said...

Click and comment Monday. Visited from DaddyPlace.

Stay in the better place. What happens with your dad and mom is their business. As much as you would like, you cannot change others.

God bless!

Stephanie A. said...

Jenn I'm so happy that you're feeling stronger and better about this. And thank you for trusting us enough to share such a delicate topic. You completely rock!

socialworker/frustrated mom said...

I totally relate all my anger at my dad and other stuff also subsided and I am at greater place as well. Happy you feel better good you vented.

Virginia Belle said...

glad you are doing better, ster. :)

although, i am STILL trying to get over that post where you described how blake would cry and cry and cry every night and you could never escape it and would just sit down and pray for him to go to sleep.

seriously, i have thought about how freakin' hard that would be. like 8 times. it kinda made me scared to be a mommy one day.

Angry Dad said...

Wow, I'm a bit behind, but I just read these two posts together. Pretty powerful stuff, and I'm glad you're in a better place emotionally about it all.

I can't wait to go and see Pirates. This weeks activity! Woo Hoo!!