my life has changed since i moved from southern cali to northern cali. my work mostly. i worked in a great company, doing an okay job. i was unchallenged and bored beyond belief. i was only busy in spurts and it was rarely consistant. i never thought i'd leave that company though. i had no problems working there until i died. just not in that position.. not in that department. my new job kicks my ass on a daily basis. i work late often and my friday's are 100 times busier than my monday's. i am busier the last hour of work than i am the first hour. it's all sorts of back asswards, but that's okay. i like being challenged and learning new things. and i went from literally one amazing company, to another. and i get to work with the big boss man, and it doesn't get any cooler than that. well, unless he's in a bad mood and doesn't think my antics are cute and funny (even though they always are, dur).
so i got un-asked to be a bridesmaid in a friends wedding. who the hell gets UNasked to be a bridesmaid?? it's a first for me. i understand her reasoning though. i truly do. she wants more from me as a friend than i can give and she doesn't feel very close to me since i moved. and that leads me to this- expectations. do you have high expectations for your friends at this stage in your life? are you a demanding, or high maintenance friend? cause i don't feel like i am at all. i don't require anything from my friends on a daily basis, other than for them to just stay alive. i know that's asking alot. i'm SO demanding. but seriously. i can go months without talking to my closest friends, and it doesn't mean a thing other than the fact that we all have lives, and we're busy living them. it doesn't mean i don't care about that person, or love them, or think about them, etc. i just don't feel the need to be up my friends asses on a daily basis. who has time for that? i certainly don't. not with a kid, this job, and now that i'm living in sin with boyfriend (not to mention trying to plan this damn wedding). i feel like i barely have time to breathe.
anyways, i started wondering if maybe i was a shitty friend? do i come off like i don't care because i don't put expectations on people? that can't be right. because that's just not who i am. i know that if i needed one of my friends, they'd be there for me. just like i would be there for them if they needed me. i also feel like each one of my best friends plays a different role in my life. i know who to go to when i need to talk about certain issues or share certain things. they are each so different, yet together they make up the most beautiful collection of people i've ever known.
what about you? how often do you talk to your best friend(s)? what is your relationship like?