Tuesday, April 04, 2006

the first time

no, not that first time, sickos.

the first time i hear a new cd. i love music. it affects me so incredibly much. the lyrics especially, but also the instruments. the lyrics could suck, but the background music could be so incredibly beautiful, that i can't stop listening to it. whenever i get a new cd, i find myself completely transfixed. i dive into the song head first, and whatever they're singing about, i am there. i see the song in my head. i find myself laughing when they're laughing, crying when they've lost someone, finding it hard to breathe when they sing something that takes my breath away. sometimes i lose myself in a piano melody, or am completely transfixed by a string instrument's solo. and while they're singing over the chords, i can still hear it in the background... i love beautiful music. i love crappy music. i love music. it really is a powerful tool.

i got a new cd this morning, can you tell? when i listen to something for the first time, i'm just sitting there dying... wondering, where is the song going? it's like watching a story unfold for the first time. you're not quite sure where it's heading, but it's a beautiful ride getting there. songs can be so inspiring-
"life's like a novel with the end ripped out.. the edge of a canyon with only one way down.. when push comes to shove, you taste what you're made of.. you decide you've had enough, you get mad, you get strong.. then you stand."

and it can be heartbreaking too-
"there's a rain that'll never stop falling.. there's a wall that i've tried to take down.. all i can hear in the silence that remains, are the words i couldn't say... and it's too late now."

and it can make you laugh-
"ya wanna know what you get when you play a country song backwards? you get your horse back, ya get your dog back, ya get your best friend jack back, ya get your truck back, ya get your hair back, ya get your first and second wives back, ya get your mind back, ya nerve back..."

it's the music too. the melody in the song that makes you laugh because it's so silly and fun and crazy and you find yourself dancing like crazy in your car. or heartbreakingly slow and serene you find yourself hanging on every up and down note of the strings.

i'm a slave to music. and i don't mind it one bit. i fucking love it, actually. what about you? does music affect you at all, or am i just a freak? (we all know i'm a freak, but still)

26 comments:

rhonda said...

Music effects me the same way. It is so moving, can bring me to tears, make me want to dance, so many emotions. I'm with ya!

Melissa said...

I am so with you. I adore music. Almost all music. When I get addicted to a song, I listen to it until everyone around me is ready to gorge their eyes out. What is that by the way? I now need it. By the first one, I think I know, but after seeing the rest, I have no clue. Rascall Flatts is my guess, but forgive me if you don't listen to country. Hey, I fixed the link on my site to you by the way. :)

jennster said...

rhonda- SEE! music is the freaking shit!!! love it!!

melissa- it IS rascal flatts!!! i just didn't want to post who, in case people hate country, then they tend to read the post differently. lol

jennster said...

LOL melissa- it says jennster at blogstop. LOL

Melissa said...

Ok so I'm dyslexic. Here I go to change it again. I know how you feel about saying you listen to country. I was hesitant to guess at it, for fear of bugging someone. But I have already admitted I listen to country when I posted a link to the Dixie Chicks new song, so there. Hey, also I saw Rascal Flatts in Concert and they are amazing.

Becky said...

it totally affects me. you're not a freak. i have certain songs for certain moods and i'll play them on repeat.

Becky said...

btw, i knew it was rascal flatts but thsat only cuz i know how much you love them. they rock

Elizabeth said...

I'm the same way too about my favorite CDs. There are certain ones that I have to listen to from beginning to end because all the songs flow together so well.

Speaking of CDs, I made a mix, would you like a copy? The playlist is on my March 28th post, email me your address if you want one. If you don't, that's ok too.

jennster said...

awww elizabeth, thanks for your offer! so sweet of you.. i'll check out the post (i remember reading it, but not who the mix was of)... and let you know. thanks again!

jen said...

Are you listening to Rascal Flatts?!
My hubby and I cannot get enough of "What Hurts the Most"...we actually get teary eyed watching that video!!! Shhh...don't tell anyone... ;)

Melissa said...

I saw that video the other day and it made me bawl my eyes out. I adore them.

jennster said...

i LOVE that video (even though i don't think that is what the song is about at all- not loss, in terms of death anyways)..
i've TRIED many times to get boyfriend to watch it with me, but he hates them. :(

Stephanie A. said...

Without music some days would really, really suck. I love nearly all kinds of music and love to find new bands/albums that evoke emotion from me.

Melissa said...

Like I said in your previous post. Tie him down. :)

Alison said...

I know how you are with music. I think you own every CD known to man. I think it's cool too that you listen to all types of music. For beautiful lyrics and beautiful music and a beautiful singer, try Dave Matthews. But you knew I was crazy over them. :)

jennster said...

hooch- i already know, love, and enjoy DMB. DMB WHORE! hahaha
i love me some frank sinatra! *swoooooon* joey mac would be proud. lol

Alison said...

Speaking of Joey Mac, he's pretty hot these days. :)

I am not a DMB whore. What is a DMB whore?? I just enjoy good music and a nice-looking man, even if he is fat, bald, and usually drunk and/or high. :)

jennster said...

like i said. WHORE. joey is such a cutie pie face!!!!

spidey said...

Certain songs totally affect me emotionally. Whatever mood I am in, there is a song to make me feel better, or just to let me feel sad if that's what I want.

Yorksdevil said...

Well, music's always been my first love, I have some in my head all the time. I find it works better than thinking. I can't keep listening to the same thing over and over though, I need variety, but of course I keep going back to my favourites. Have you ever managed to get through the Johnny Cash 'Hurt' video?

Mammawannabe said...

I'm thinking you should "review" a CD for us every week :) I have eclectic tastes too, so I listen to a lot of everything!

Hot T Finder said...

Just wanted to let you know that the Bloggin Hottie of the month voting has begun!!

jennster said...

rick- yes.. i love that video. it's so touching. i am a sucker for painful love. i apparently like to torture myself with that kind of shit. HAHA!

mama- weekly cd reviews? *dies*.. i don't even buy cd's weekly! how about just when i buy a new cd. here's my review of the rascal flatts one- it is good. more mellow than their usual stuff- and i really do get tired of the whiney lead singers voice. why doesn't he let someone else sing- i know the other 2 CAN sing & well. they should sing more lead vocal. cause if the lead guy does a "wahhh waha hwhawhahahahhaa" one more time, i might have to kick him in the vocal chords. HA!

Melissa said...

HAHAHAHA that cracked me up Jenn. I feel the same way. I was really suprised when I saw them in concert that the other two sang so well.

Lisa said...

There are certain songs that can evoke the strongest emotions in me. Certain songs I tie to past boyfriends, friends, happy times or scarey times.

Megaland said...

you're just a freak jenn...or so i've heard...oh wait, like you said "not THAT first time"...yes i love music, i wish i listened more to it these days...sometimes i just admire and appreciate the silence even more...especially when i'm all alone, i just enjoy my alone time doing what i like to be doing...music used to be such a big part of my life and i wish it still was...i guess when you have an almost 2 year old in the house, he's my music now...when i do play some jams, he dances and dances and will dance forever if i let him...thats when i appreciate music even more...i love that about him...about how music can affect him so much already at such a young age... :)