first, some background on our friends johnny & katie. katie is from the same city down south (in so cal) that i'm from. and johnny is from the same city up here that boyfriend is. i got the call from katie last night that they're moving back down to southern california. soon.
that was it. i started crying last night and i couldn't stop. it's not just that our only married friends are moving most likely to my hometown to start a family. it's not just that. but it's a big part of it. first of all, i don't want them to go. like, i really don't want them to go. but a part of me is envious. that they're going to move back to where i'm from and i feel like i don't even have that option. not that i even want it at the moment, but for some reason- that's totally not the point. i was explaining to boyfriend last night that i needed to do this. i needed to have this emotional breakdown. cause i haven't had it since moving. it's been 6 and a half months and i haven't had a really good cry about all of it. i left my job in a kick ass company that i still love, adore and care so much about.. i moved away from my sister, niece and nephew.. and i left the city i grew up in and loved to raise blake in.
and let me tell you, i'm apparently not done with the whole tears thing. my boss just brought me flowers for valentine's day and i started crying again. she told me she had her "leaving LA breakdown" 3 weeks after they moved here. she didn't stop crying for 24 hours. so i figure i have about 20 hours left.