Tuesday, February 14, 2006

rough night

first, some background on our friends johnny & katie. katie is from the same city down south (in so cal) that i'm from. and johnny is from the same city up here that boyfriend is. i got the call from katie last night that they're moving back down to southern california. soon.

that was it. i started crying last night and i couldn't stop. it's not just that our only married friends are moving most likely to my hometown to start a family. it's not just that. but it's a big part of it. first of all, i don't want them to go. like, i really don't want them to go. but a part of me is envious. that they're going to move back to where i'm from and i feel like i don't even have that option. not that i even want it at the moment, but for some reason- that's totally not the point. i was explaining to boyfriend last night that i needed to do this. i needed to have this emotional breakdown. cause i haven't had it since moving. it's been 6 and a half months and i haven't had a really good cry about all of it. i left my job in a kick ass company that i still love, adore and care so much about.. i moved away from my sister, niece and nephew.. and i left the city i grew up in and loved to raise blake in.

and let me tell you, i'm apparently not done with the whole tears thing. my boss just brought me flowers for valentine's day and i started crying again. she told me she had her "leaving LA breakdown" 3 weeks after they moved here. she didn't stop crying for 24 hours. so i figure i have about 20 hours left.

10 comments:

Becky said...

awww jenn! i'm sorry! good cries are necessary when you feel like that! maybe you and point can move back someday soon!

jennster said...

HA! highly doubtful and i think that's one of the hardest parts.

Matt said...

Awww :( Feel better Jenn! If it makes you feel better I think your new job is super-cool. Hang in there, you are very adaptable and strong. (That makes you sound like some kind of wire or cable, but you get the idea.)

jennster said...

thanks matt! i'm not miserable or unhappy, or anything. i'm just sad i guess and i feel like i NEED to have this breakdown. i need to be a freak and cry for 2 days. lol

Melissam said...

SoCal and SV miss you too! Cry it out Girl! You need this and just know, you can always visit and crash at my place if you need to.

Also, be glad you got out of SP while it was still fun and you have good memories. Not like it is now...oy!

Mindy said...

Awww Jenn. I know it is a big adjustment. It will get easier. It was very hard for me to move from the East Coast to the West Coast but it was the best thing I have ever done. Hugs.

Kym said...

(((((Ster)))))

jennster said...

thanks mindy!!!!! it's hard. across the country, or across the state. *sigh* i miss disneyland!!!

russ said...

Y'all dress in layers in Cali as if the temperatures can fluxuate between 100 and -20 degrees!

Spidey said...

((((((Jenn))))) A good cry can definitely be theraputic. Let it out, baby!